Another Day

Well, I made it through another day. I am thankful for that. I went to the doctor yesterday. I really like him. I think this one might actually get to do surgery on me. On to other things, my son's blood sugar went to 558 today. Cynthia and I went to the school and picked him up. The doctor upped his dosage of insulin at night. Hopefully that will help. I can't take much more worry right now. I am moving again. I don't want too. The place I am moving to is just as nice as this one, it's a little more than twice the size, and it's allot cheaper. Maybe I can afford to live in it and live at the same time. I just don't want to go through the moving part. It's only about five minutes from my house now and the kids will be going to the same school so that's good. It has a fenced in back yard so Bridgett will be able to have her dog that she's been wanting. Her cat that we have had forever was hit by a car the other day and it broke her heart. She loves animals more than she loves people. I never have been a big animal person. Don't get me wrong, I like them fine, I just don't need anything else in my life to take care of.. sometimes I get tired of being the one to take care of everything, everyonce in a while I would really like to be taken care of. Oh well. The last couple of days I have been depressed. I hate it. I don't know what's wrong with me. My friends have asked because I guess they can tell but I can't tell them what's wrong with me when I am not sure myself. I am having battles within myself and sometimes I just feel like I am losing. I am always so tired now. I will be glad when the cancer is gone and I can get back to the active life I enjoyed before. Now going to the store makes me tired. I try to hide it, I think I do pretty well for the most part.. but lately I have started to let it show a little more than I would like. I am not sleeping well at night and getting up at five tends to make it worse.. but tomorrow is Friday and now the weekend is quickly approaching. Unfortunately I will be packing. Maybe I need a night out. David and I are having a rough time right now as well.. everything I do, including breathing, gets on his nerves lately. I keep trying to do what he wants me to, whatever it may be at the moment.. and it just doesn't help. I guess that's life though. It couldn't be good forever. I am sorry it's been so long since I have posted. My brother is staying with me and his computer was hooked up.. mine was having issues but I think we have them fixed now. I hope we do anyway. He spends more time on here than I do but he was on vacation. Now that he is back at work I get a little computer time. So, hopefully this will lead to more of my boring posts for you people to read. I am going to go get some reading done before bedtime.. I am on a Sidney Sheldon trip right now so I am going to read all of the books I have by him until I get bored with him and move on to someone new. Any suggestions?

I'm Out.